fitrifarina.
I procrastinate. I take photographs. I draw. I dream big.

Amazing. Really amazing.
And to tell that im really clueless about it.

Funny, when you know things cant get any tougher, it does.
Im super proud of my work at times cause really, after ten years of my parents stifling whatever I do, I finally broke free. Maybe its wrong. Maybe I should believe like what my parents say, that I'm simply not good at anything, and be in planet "Look-at-me,im-smart" like my sister.

Why cant i like my stuff? Its all new and awesome to me. I have got a lot to learn and maybe saying about it is wrong. Just maybe... Its amazing when you have friends whom you can share many things with. Like how I didnt know that clare reads sylvia plath. Or how marc taught me stuff about photography since he was from tp and is really good with cameras.

Funny, that some people only see whats here. Like I said, Im usually devoid of any feelings. I have tons of stuff i have to do and still, despite all my usual laughing antics, Im still coping with the death of my grandfather whom I was really close to. I still have time to stay with my grandmother because everyone is so busy and shes not stable yet. I still have to go to work, do my school stuff and take care of things when shit happens. So tell me, what is adulthood?

All of this does not matter.
I'll get scrutinised again anyway.

I'm through with doubt5:28 AM